I feel like I’m just in a weird place right now. And not just in one aspect of my life, in every single aspect you can possibly think of. I just feel like I’m coming up short in everything.
I have the urge—the desire, to do better and I most definitely want better, but I just won’t allow myself to do better.
I’m holding on to things that aren’t healthy for me, people that aren’t healthy for me and I’m fully aware of this, but I continue to do so. On the other hand, I’m offering the “cold shoulder” to people who I know will help me progress and who will support me and denying fulfilling opportunities.
I’m subconsciously substituting happiness for darkness and things that will ultimately cause me to be miserable. And I have absolutely no clue as to why….